As i walked down the narrow frangipani lined lane

 i wondered to myself

if the perfume of these flowers would arrest me

and hold me captive...?

 the sea roared across the bouldered wall

and i heard the kingfisher call...

 tiny buds had begun to unfold their petals

expressing their dire need

to show their hearts out to the world...

the sky now blue

now grey had begun to turn a deeper hue...

 the waves thrashed at the rocks

 a child somewhere shrieked out loud...

 the silence broken

the fragrance forgotten

and the attention drawn towards the sound ...

where did the cry come from???

what did it seek from me???

i wondered as i walked back ...

was it time to return and attend to my child?

 a cluster of stars sparkled like a distant necklace...

 I seek from you today my love

 Is the knowledge of your well being

And some thoughts

on how you feel

When the rain incessantly falls…

Cause here I am

Fighting this gloom

And trying

to make sure that this grey day

Does not create despair

 in my mind.

Holding on with my strength

The feelings

that I retrieve from the yester years memories…

 the rain that did once form pale curtains in the distance

and our proximities unrevealed…

soon I pray will come that day

when again

I shall hold you in my arms..

and gaze into your deep dark eyes…

 I seek from you today my love

Is to know that you smile each day

Like you have always

And the sparkle in your eyes

Lights up the many hearts that seek your attentions…

Cause loving is not possesing

Its merely knowing

That my sweet love is capable to make many so happy…

phir mann mein aaya

khyaal aapka kal shaam

 jab badaloan ney phelaayi thi

zameen par apni chaaoan...

 dur samundar mein khel rahi thi leherein

aur phooloan key chehoraon par thi

meethi muskaan..

 hawa bhi thi chancal us pal mein

uskey bhi hotaon par tha koi madhur gaan

 phir aayi yaad mujhey aapki  kal shaam...

 kahaan ho aap tha ek prashan merey mann mein

aur us pal mein

kya ho raha tha aapki zindagi mein...

woh lamha kuch aisa hi tha..

kashish pherayi usney peheley

merey mann main

phir ek mehakti sugandhit yaad bankar

pighal sa gaya

pyaar e gulshan mein...

here i was

last evening

walking back slowly

letting the sweat dry on my back..

 the wind swirled my thoughts about

 a dark evening

when the clouds had blocked

the blue hues from the sky

 to colours my moods with their own dye

 the fragrance of the frangipani lined street

held me in the twirls of the perfume

 unlit and inviting...

again reminding me

of evenings i had spent in bliss...

 the tall grass was being whipped by the wind

and it  quietly hissed...

making me aware

 of the serpents that  within them lived

but my eyes were drawn to the sky

and the mind was begining to smile..

oh how sweet was this moment ...

 this moment of 'wishing you were here with me'.

 the sea roared

sending the waves thrashing on the bouldered beach ...

 tugging and twining...

and i

 i merely shrugged back at her

and returned back smiling...

sometimes glancing at the sky

 in case a lil star did peek at me

from between the clouds...

During my waking hours

When the morning still
hides the awakend birds

And wraps the perfume of
the frangipani blooms

Into a coil

Of her own making…

When the sky still had
clouds skudding

And playing with the huge
moon

And the sea in the near
distance merely croons…

I seek thee in this
solitude…

The eyes are still filled
with the sleep

And the dreams I dreamt

Have slowly begun to fade

And melt into
forgetfullness…

All that I seek

In this waking moment

Is you, besides me…

My hands search the
spaces around

Only to return back to me,
empty.

You, bodily, remain
unfound.

You had been there all
night though

This I know

Cause I had lain in your
arms

Wrapped in that
encompassing hug

But now

As my eyes open slowly

I realize the weaving of
the thoughts

Had become all real
dreams…

I seek you

As my eyes shut once
again

And my lips

Dry and parched

Seek you who is miles so
far apart …

From me.

jaadu hai teri nazar mein dilbar

bas ab inhi ankhoan mein

baserra banaoongi main

har pal mein rahoongi teri nazar mein

ab idhar hi main apney mahal ko sajaaoongi...

merey dil sey poocho toh zara

kis haal mein rehata hai yeh

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ek nayi manzil

ek nayi raah

lekin

 phir bhi jhalak hai un beetey huay palon ki

 meri ankhoan key saamney...

sochti hoon

kyon merey pag ab bhi dheemey dhhemey

badh rahey hain aagey???

 kash woh yahan hotey saath mein

toh shayad nikal jaati mein woh manzil ki aur

tezi sey binna darr

aur chod jaati peechey

 woh shikvey woh be fidgul key vaadey

unafraid i should tread

without fear move ahead

if loves in my life

and joy in my heart

nothings gonna break my steps...

vulnerable and with a core

thats within soft

i am sure confidence will coat

with a sugary countenance

and a unbreakable mould...

i have gotta take my next steps

into the tomorrows

with more conviction

and no disillusions

 we all wear masks

at some time or the other

 and sometimes we wear them all the time

let mine be a smiling one bothways

one that i can see inwardly

and one that the world sees outwardly...

ek darr hai mann mein aaj

ki yeh sundar khwaab jo main har pal dekh rahi hoon

 toot na jaaye

 yeh sapna,

samay ki dhaara key sang

reth bankar

behey naa jaaye...

jeeney ka maqsad hai yeh

hawa key jhaunkey mein mil kar

kisi aur ud na jaaye...

umeed bhi ek aisi cheez hai

jismey har mann ki asha

ek nai raah dikhaati hai

ek naya sapna zindagi sey dilwaati hai...

kyon darti hoon main phir

ab is pal

jab ehsaas hai

 ki beshumaar pyaar hai merey jahaan main...kyon phir lagta hai

ki kisi ki irsha

shayad kheech legi meri kushi mujhsey.. kyon?

The mosaic above

 with its myriad shades of green,

 vivid red and summer blue

reminded me of you. i smiled within and thought

if only i could for a moment get close enough to you

i would show you a sky full of wonders

 in my eyes

 you would have to watch carefully though

 lest i began dreaming again...

then the marbled sky would perhaps become  a sea

or a pool. oh am such a fool for going on like this but then

when did i deny to you

my inane insanity!!!